My Darling Samm,
As you and Mark consider all the pro's and con's regarding the suggested surgery to completely remove our precious Deqlan's residual tumour, my prayer for you both is that you are guided ONLY by God's word, which you will find beautifully described and indicated in the Bible. Herein you will find ALL HIS PROMISES TO YOU, so read and reread HIS word until you have your answer.
The following tribute (by Erma Bombeck) is intended as "food for thought" and to remind you how special God knows you are and why YOU will make the best decision for Deqlan, My Treasured and Precious Samm:
THE CHOSEN MOTHERS
by Erma Bombeck
Most women become a mother by accident, some by choice and a few by habit. Did you ever wonder how mother's of children with life-threatening illness are chosen ? Somehow, I visualize God hovering over earth selecting His instruments for propagation with great care and deliberation. As He observes, He instructs His angels to make notes in a giant ledger :
"To Armstrong, Beth, a son, patron saint Matthew,
To Forrest, Marjorie, a daughter, patron saint Cecilia,
To Rutledge, Carrie, twins, patron saint Gerard"
Finally, He passes a name to an angel and says,
"Give her a child with cancer"
The Angel is curious and asks "Why this one, God? She's so happy"
"Exactly", smiles God, "Could I give a child with cancer to a mother who does not know laughter ? That would be cruel"
"But does she have patience ?" asks the Angel,
"I don't want her to have too much patience or she will drown in a sea of self-pity and despair.
Once the shock and resentment wears off, she will handle it. I watcher her today" said God.
"She has that feeling of self-independence that is so rare and necessary in a mother. You see, the child I'm going to give her has its own world. She has to make it live in her world and that's not going to be easy".
Yes, here is the woman I will BLESS with a child less than perfect. She doesn't realize it yet, but she is to be envied. SHE WILL NEVER TAKE ANYTHING HER CHILD DOES FOR GRANTED. SHE WILL NEVER CONSIDER A SINGLE STEP ORDINARY. I WILL PERMIT HER TO SEE CLEARLY THE THINGS IS SEE .... IGNORANCE, CRUELTY, PREJUDICE.... AND ALLOW HER TO RISE ABOVE THEM"
"And what about her patron saint ?" asks the angel, his pen poised in mid-air.
God smiles and says ...........
"A MIRROR WILL SUFFICE"
My prayer is that you tackle this difficult decision with confidence, intuition, diligence, grace but above all, with COMPLETE RELIANCE ON GOD'S GUIDANCE. Together you and Mark WILL come to the right decision. "For I know the plans I have to you, Plans to prosper and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" Jeremiah 29:11.
With all my love,
Mom and Nanna to Deqlan